I am sorry that it is been long time never post anything on journal or pic. It is just that a lot of stuff happen. First, I heard that my dear brother got cancer, and it might be in the second stage. I wish god help my bother, and all i can do is pray.

Another things that keep bother me a lot and almost make me stress enough to break down is that My mother want me to quit school this semester, and go back to Taiwan because for her is that i am fucking up in school. I got a 2.78 GPA and still in 2 years college, but i try to finish my two certificate, and one degree.I might be slower than other people, but fucking i am working on it.

However, i do not want to give up. If she is scare that I have cancer, i going to do my test here, and i going to do what I can to survive.

The things make me made the most is that My mother lie to me, she didn't tell my sister anything what she said she will, and the most is that she going to cut off my finical aid and drag me back to Taiwan, and cut off all my what she believe she can cut off. My sister did not help at all, when i got home she told me just listen to my mother.

I am already 4 week of my school, i really do not want to go back to Taiwan, and when i decide to listen to my mother, my sister say a word change my mind make me want to fight again, she give me the smile that said she don't have to because she have a job now, and mom didn't told her anything about that, and say just listen to her. it makes me just broke down. I talk to my friend and their family they all believe what i do is right, and all i can do is walk down the path that my family don't agree, even i can't get my finical aid right now, and need to work my butt off get the money the right way.

She keep told me that my friend will never help me if i am sick or have aka cancer, but they all on my side right now. They are kinda like my family, they care and going to help me go through this. I going to prey for my brother, and wish myself i going to ok too. I know life is hard, but it is a path that i have to go. If I have to live with my friend, and survive and pull my grade up i will. I got so many stress right now i don't know how many more Grey hair i going to have. if that meant i have to commission and start posting i will!!!